Gah! I've just figured out that I have only 6 contracts classes left. 6 civ pro classes left and 6 torts classes left. And as I outline, make flashcards, review generally, and finish the reading for the semester, the only statement I have is: That's It?!?! Don't get me wrong. I've got more than enough to study, but I have this sick feeling in my stomach that if I had to deal with a contracts suit right now, my client would lose??? I think anyway. It's just weird to think that they are willing to stamp on my transcript, "yes, yaya knows everything she needs to know about contracts, torts, and civ pro". I had to giggle at Kristine's latest post because she was reading my mind.
Even more mind-blowing for me is that this 1L thing... at least all of the uncertainty is almost over. Next semester I won't be freaked out because I know how to brief, how to read my profs, how to answer in class, and in a few weeks I'll know what the exam experience is like, and in a few months, I'll know if my outlines were worth anything when I get my grades. Really, how scary can second semester 1L be?
Onto a more neurotic note, I'm contemplating... OK, not contemplating, but actually doing... changing my study area. At my school, we are assigned study carrels and the 1L carrels are in a different area of the law school than the 2L and 3L carrels. In many ways, I've loved being with the rest of the 1Ls. I like the camaraderie. I like being able to get up and walk an aisle over and ask my favorite torts peer what the heck some case is really about. But a few things are happening 1) it's damn noisy in the 1L area, 2) I'm part of the noise all too frequently and 3) some people are getting psycho about exams, and it's making for an unpleasant vibe. It gets under my skin, and I am not working as hard as I need to. So I left the secretary in charge of carrel assignments a note with my pick of the open upperclassmen carrels on her desk tonight. Hopefully I can move in the morning. It's kind of a pain. And I worry that I am going to miss out on some bonding... Example, my civ pro exam study group came out of talking about our outlines in the 1L area... but ultimately, I think that I will get a ton more work done. And frankly, that's all that matters to me right now anyway.
It's time to get really serious (without getting psycho!).